Ice Box

I got this ice box where my heart used to be
I got this ice box where my heart used to be
a-haaaaa~ I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
a-haaaaa~ I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

I hope I'm getting everything I can out of the relationships I hold. Just thinking of all the people I know... it's amazing to me how different and complex everyone is and just how complex the mind is in itself. Two people are presented with the same situation and take from it totally different experiences. They learn and grow in opposite directions but hold something as precious as their relationship, whether good or bad, where they can see those differences and grow even more....
Differences are inevitable and being the bigger person is actually a pretty good saying now that I think of it. Whether I might see our difference as me being more mature than you (or you being stupid), or you might see our difference as me just being a stubborn dumb fuck (AKA Korean), I will try to be the "bigger person" and, in the end, thank God for this thing called Love that He's blessed us with... even if we don't know it.
because that's what exists between us even if we've never talked for more than 5 minutes or have known each other all our lives. That's what brings us together whether we like it or not because God is Love and He created us in Love for the purpose of showing and sharing His Love. What a freaking confusing concept.... but it totally makes sense. He uses us to form us, to teach us, to lift us... closer to Him.

I don't wanna be stuck up in this cold, cold, world.

While I was listening to this song I started thinking about how a relationship can really scar a person but at the same time develop Him/her in areas that cannot be met through other means. The bond in a relationship is needed to survive in this world to stay warm and sane. That bond is driven in Love. Scarring happens when things happen and when we don't realize the truth behind relationships in the first place. Scarring doesn't have to happen when we open our eyes to gain knowledge and truth and come to understand Love even more.

Then we understand God even more... and come to know God for who He really is, not what the world makes Him out to be.

Break

Break is great! I feel guilty for not studying and not doing anything all day... but it's wonderful :)

Got a tree.... muaha. It's great. Everything is great!!!!!! The color theme for the tree is red, silver, and white. We bought colored lights which was a big mistake... we should've gotten white lights. It's ok though cause if we don't turn on the lights the tree is still beauuutiful. The place we got the tree from is right down the street and the dude chopped part of it off to make it smaller.. he even trimmed it to give it the Christmas-y shape. Wonderful. This Christmas will be wonderful. This winter break is wonderful. Seriously. I feel so free. I realized picking trees is sort of hard. There's a lot you have to look out for. And you have to realize that up close, no tree looks nice. You have to look at the overall shape and make sure there aren't any bald spots (our tree has a bald spot.. but I photoshopped an ornament over it so you can't tell!!). Actually this picture makes the tree look ugly... but trust me, it's really cute! Come over and see for yourself.

BREAK IS GREAT! :D

Things I'm Excited For

Jenn and Sarah both did a "Things I'm Excited For" blog list .... I want to do one too :)


1. "HEYYY!!!" Gathering this Thursday! hahaha. I got confirmation from everyone but Brownie and JLEE. Are you guys coming or what????

2. Brian's coming home Thursday! Hang out with him on Friday!

3. Everyone's coming home for BREAK!

4. BREAK!

5. Finals are ALMOST over. Just tomorrow's 2 finals, then my last test Thursday morning... then FREEDOM!

6. Christmas Tree for the apartment!!!

7. Road trip to LA with Sun after Christmas! YEE!!

I wasn't that excited before I made this list... but now that I wrote everything out... I'M SO EXCITEDDD!!! hahaha. Thanks to Sarah and Jennifer Leung ^^

Amazing

I'm almost done! ALMOST! Just one project and three finals to go. UC essays are done, transfer apps are done (for now)... almost free. I'm going to spend this winter break releasing my stress and getting back into shape. I don't remember the last time I ran for more than 10 seconds and I'm getting tired.... of getting tired... as I walk up the stair to my apartment. All this studying (and pretending to study while playing on the internet) has locked me in this apartment with nothing to do but EAT and READ. I'm actually enjoying reading and getting tired of eating. What has this world come to? Except super burritos.... I never get tired of those. Especially since there's this really good taqueria near my place that's cheap and closes at 2am :D

But that's not the point. I need to sweat myself PURE and CLEANSE the inside of my body with FRESH AIR. I need... to hike. I heard the other side of 280 has a lot of really beautiful hiking trails. I think I'll discover one this winter break. I'm going to hike even if its raining. In fact, I want to hike WHILE its raining so I can use the new North Face backpack my brother got me.... it has a bright yellow rain cover. I thought the backpack was a little too big for school, but after putting all my books and laptop in, it's actually a pretty good size. But literally... this is straight up a hiking backpack... and I need to fill it with something and climb up a mountain. I can't waittttt! In the meantime, I think I'm going to get one of those 24 Hour Fitness free 24 day trials and sit in their crazy steam room every night until finals are over. I remember when I used to go into those steam rooms with my mom. The sign said not to stay in for more than like 15-20 minutes or so... that crazy ahjumma would stay in there for days. And she'd bring lemon juice and splash some next to the steam pipes so the steam room would smell nice and fresh... a little embarrassing, but at least it didn't smell like nasty sweat. Oh, the memories.

I'm glad I was stupid and naive in high school so that I didn't get into any good universities. In every way, I wasn't ready, especially in my spirituality. I would've been one of those pansy Christian kids who went to college and lived for the world. That would've been all bad.....

But I'm ready now! Let me in UCB so I can live with Reebs and eat bulgogi sandwiches every day! Let me in God so I can serve you to the fullest :)

Body Fuzion

This is one of my favorite SNL skits :)

Happy Birthday <3

TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY!! Well... last Tuesday was my birthday--but I was too busy to celebrate~ And I'm still too busy to celebrate, but you have to have cake, right? This month is the most stressful month of my life. Too bad my birthday was right in the middle of all the chaos. UC transfer apps are due by the end of this month and I'm still not done with my essays (don't worry, will finish by this weekend). I have 3 midterms next week before Thanksgiving break. I'm so glad golf season is over so I can have more time for these UC apps. Why can't the UC system be like other universities and have their apps due in January? Don't they want to see my wonderful grades from this semester?! hehe... not that wonderful :)

My lovely other half, Sun, brought home my favorite Safeway brand cake. You know, the one with the strawberries packed in the center topped with this strawberry syrup and surrounded by crazy amounts of whip cream???? She also brought California Rolls from her work and some Hot Cheetos cause I've been craving them all day. She was feeling sick all night but was nice enough to pick up these valuable items before coming home. And right when she got home, she went straight to the bathroom and threw up. ew. But I still enjoyed my cake! haha.

It's pretty amazing how fast everything is happening. My 18th birthday still hasn't soaked in and I'm already 20. I've been letting my past few birthdays get by because of school and golf, but I definitely won't let my 21st pass like another day. My present to myself this year was tying for 2nd at State Championships in Ventura this past weekend! Woot woot! I tied with 2 other girls and was only one stroke away from 1st place. But then I lost in the playoff for the 2nd place medal :( But I still tied for 2nd! haha. If I get into UCB, I really hope I have a chance at walking on to their team. I can't believe this season might be the last golf season of my life! Crazy....


But what's even crazier is that after class I slept from 2:30-8:30pm. Talk about a freakin' power nap~

Little Rebecca, Big UC Berkeley

Today was a long day with my two most favorite people: Sun and little Rebecca~ It all started at 5:30 in the AM when Sun and I got up to go to saebyukgido. We went Berkeley right after to pick up Reebs and eat breakfast. She took almost 2 hours to get ready, so Sun and I had to wait in the cold outside of her dorm the whole time.


When she finally came out the grumpy little thing didn't even say sorry. jjashik. We ate breakfast at a little cafe... Look at shy little Rebecca eating her omelet--she was still half asleep telling us stories about people dancing in her calc class.


We ate breakfast, then looked for parking for a good 30 minutes before parking at Hojun oppa's apartment complex. Then we headed to the library to make little Rebecca study for her 2 midterms next week. She didn't study at all and slept the whole time... little jjashik.


After Sun and I studied for 4 hours, and Rebecca slept for 4 hours, we decided to get some bulgogi sandwiches then head for the Cal gift shops. After an hour of looking around gift shops, Sun and I had to leave little Rebecca because Sun had work. Little Rebecca cried and begged for us not to go, and started telling us stories of people dancing in her calc class again but we just kicked her away because there was nothing else we could do. Then Rebecca went back to the library to sleep some more. jjashik.




The End.

Studio Tour

It's been about a month since we've moved into this place and it's finally complete ever since Evan, Sam, Kevin and Emmerson came over and moved my couch and TV in (Thanks guys!). The couch was too long to take up the stairs, so the guys decided to tie a rope to it and pull it up to the 3rd floor. It was pretty scary~ haha. But all went well (because backup came--Bohyun and Yoseb obba) and everything's great :D







I love the breakfast bar in the kitchen and how the toilet/bathtub is separate from the sink :)

Sun (my roomy) and I prayed a lot for our new place, and with a lot of detail. God seriously provided everything we asked for: carport parking, a lot of room/ storage room, a big kitchen with a breakfast bar, on site washer & dryer, good location, good price, and quiet building. He provided us with everything. I especially wanted the breakfast bar~ haha. I love this place... it'll suck when we transfer next Fall because we put so much effort into making it perfect . . .

What makes living here even better is that I can eat whatever I want! haha. Evan and Lisa are coming over later and we're gonna eat steak for dinner. I'm definitely a poor college student when it comes to paying rent and tuition... but when it comes to dining, I am very well off :)
(thanks to having working friends! haha)

I'll be at Nor. Cal Championships this weekend. Wish me luck!

I think . . .

I'm going to switch from Xanga to Blogger.