How I wish...

I were perfect
To walk in the light every day of my life
So that this life could go by smoother,
faster
I don't understand and not understanding makes me....
angry
frustrated
angry and frustrated to the point where...
I don't want it anymore.
Everything is a burden
everything is heavy
The people I want to know I am not surrounded by
The things I want to do I cannot achieve
Why do you make it so hard?

Help me.
S.O.S.

Thanks

Funny how You work. You never cease to amaze me. I pray for strength... and you send it in the form of my good friend.... actually, TWO good friends in TWO different situations. God, I don't know how you work but thank You.