Happy Valentine's Day

To my future partner and husband,

I love you.

I know I do... cause we wouldn't be married if I didn't! I love you, and I'm constantly praying for you. Wherever you are and in whatever you're doing, I ask God to arm you spiritually. I ask God to give you His heart to love what He loves and to hate what He hates. I ask God to mold you, through constant teaching and, most importantly, healing, that you may be transformed into the Son of God He created you to be: healthy--in the essense of His strength, might, boldness, wisdom, image (tall, I hope^^), and His natural desires to provide, protect, shelter, and love. I pray that God will always be our deepest desire, and that He would pour out His love for us into each other's hearts. In that way we wouldn't love out of our flesh, but out of the amazing and pure love of God.

:)

I know...

I write a lot about Love. But it's just that I can't focus on anything else. I just want to get to the point of everything. Yeah, there are so many desires and goals in our lives that are ready to be filled and met. Yeah.......... so? my mentality is simply "what's the point?" Really! WHAT. IS. THE. POINT?!?!

God, am I doing wrong here??? I don't want to be like everyone else and follow the same systems and patterns they follow. I don't want to be sad and hurt and emotionless like they are. I don't want to hide who I am and what I really feel. No, not who I am~~ I mean I don't want to hide who I want to be And I don't want to supress my healthy emotions... I don't want to slowly kill myself like they're doing--like I was doing before.

You set me free... now please help me to live like I'm free. I'm still living like a slave because of my mind. I'm still caring about what and how they think~ You set my heart free, now please set my mind free. In Christ's name I pray~