I want to know Your ways that I might know You

In all honesty...

It's been hard lately. I can't focus on what's most important. I thought reading Jeremiah would encourage me to trust and follow God more confidently, but... yeah, not working. I'm just so short-sighted! I can't understand that life will end and that eternity will take place. I'm living in this world and all around me people are living to glorify themselves, seeking to fulfill their desires, their wants. And what sucks even more is that it really looks like they're happy and satisfied! Like they have no worries at all! But of course I know that's wrong... who in this world is really, deeply happy?

I'm struggling right now. I want to settle for nothing less than God Himself... but my mind won't let me. My mind keeps telling me I don't have to. It keeps telling me that I can have both! But I know I can't. And I know only the eternal and divine will truly satisfy. And I know, I know, I know.... but my heart doesn't understand.

I realized in today's QT that it is really only by God's grace I know Him. So many people are blind, but He's allowed me to taste and see. To taste Heaven and realize there's more... to be able to DESIRE more! We only crave what we've tasted... He gave me a taste of Heaven, and I want more. Nothing of this world will satisfy.

God I want more of You. I need more of You. I can't take it any more. I can't take this world anymore. It's poisoning me.....

Your Presence

I just want more of You.