Paul said it right

Time is flying by, and I am achieving... nothing. But do I need to achieve anything anyway? I thought I had an idea of how ugly man is but this past week my eyes were opened twice as wide. Now, I'm disappointed even more and have come to the point where I've lost all hope. I've come to a point where I just want to turn back the hands of time--a feeling which I've never experienced before. Nostalgia. I learned that word freshman year of high school in English class. Nostalgia. I miss having someone to look up to and adore. I miss my best friend. I realize I was not a good friend because I didn't do my part and now I regret and want to go back. I think this way because I feel like that's the reason why we're not good friends anymore. People have always asked "what do you regret most?" and I've never had an answer because I didn't regret anything. Now I regret as I think back. But.... what can I do now, right? Paul said to look forward, and I will. He said don't be anxious, and I won't. But anyway... I really don't know. When you're in this many levels of confusion it's better to just stop thinking altogether... cause I just mixed three different issues without realizing. But then again they all tie down to one thing.